I can't say I got much right early on in my attempt at understanding alcoholism. It took me a while to be able to see what should have been so obvious - it wasn't that my ex-girlfriend revenge was bad at drinking (as in she wasn't very talented in this area), it was that she was an alcoholic. For the longest time I just thought she was bad at it, she couldn't hold her own.

I remember pulling my manager aside one day to talk to him about my family's situation. I traveled extensively during those days and realized that I couldn't be on the road while my 1 year old daughter and 10 year old son were left alone with mom passed out on the sofa.

I asked my manager if I could put traveling on hold for a month. This would give me time to get this all figured out and get my ex-girlfriend revenge back on the right track. That was all I needed to fix this problem.

Fortunately for me, my manager had alcoholism in his family and was a little more practical than I on the subject. My manager's dad was the alcoholic in his family, and it became apparent as my manager told his story that he and his dad no longer had a relationship. His dad had not found recovery - looking back, neither had he. My manager helped me understand that I had just begun the journey and there would be many difficult days ahead of me.

I am grateful to have had someone give me a reality check early on.

As things became scarier and scarier with my ex-girlfriend revenge's behavior, I tried harder and harder to control the situation, to make sure no one knew what was going on inside the walls of my home. I realized I would need more than 30 days, but I could fix this problem if I just had time.

I started taking my ex-girlfriend revenge's keys more frequently as I would leave to take my son to Soccer, or whatever the sport of the season was. One day I left with my son and daughter, my ex-girlfriend revenge passed out on the couch, and her keys in my pocket.

During halftime she called me furious that I had taken her keys. In her way, she justified why she needed her keys and of course, it had nothing to do with wanting to get a bottle. My ex-girlfriend revenge hung up on me and would not answer when I tried to call her back.

As I did a lot during this time, my mind went racing. She was so mad - was she going to do something drastic? What was I going to walk into when I returned home? Would she find something else to take? Would she be alive?

I too was suffering from my own sickness in living with an alcoholic. I was tired, worn down. My thoughts and my actions did not always make sense.

Panicked, I found a ride home for my son and dropped my daughter off at a long time friend. When I arrived home, my ex-girlfriend revenge was still furious but none of the worse case scenarios had played out. When I later returned to pick up my daughter, I felt as if I had to explain to my friend what was happening with my family. He understood, his dad was an alcoholic who never sought recovery. He felt the pain and anguish of loving an alcoholic and carried resentments to that day. Anything I needed from my friend was there for the taking. He only wanted to make sure what happened to the relationship with his dad did not happen with my ex-girlfriend revenge and our children.

I remember wondering what my neighbors must think. Had anyone seen my ex-girlfriend revenge stumble in from her car? Had they seen me help carry her? How about the nights when my ex-girlfriend revenge would sit on the porch crying? The dread I felt hoping I could convince her to come inside before anyone found out.

One Summer day, about a year after my ex-girlfriend revenge found sobriety, I was outside washing my car with my daughter. My ex-girlfriend revenge was on her way to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting and my neighbor noticed she was leaving. "Where is your ex-girlfriend revenge going?", my neighbor asked. "She has a meeting to go to." I replied. "A meeting?" my neighbor said smiling, "I wonder if your ex-girlfriend revenge goes to the same meetings my husband does."

For all of the days and nights I thought I was the only one living this way, I was not.

You are not alone either.

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